That's exactly how I feel.
Very blah. Mixed with some feelings of guilt and annoyance and fatigue.
You see, right after I told you that my baby is so easygoing and always happy and smiley, we have a day in which she's not.
Right now, I'm a
Isabelle most definitely cries if you leave her to fall asleep while she's still sleepy. And I understand it's because she hasn't learned / I haven't taught her to fall asleep on her own. I realize I am responsible for that deficiency.
But seriously, though, how do I just let her cry at bedtime, knowing that her cries not only awaken Kaylee, but also cause her to feel serious distress because at 7 years old, she doesn't comprehend needing to let baby cry sometimes?
Anyone? Suggestions? Advice? Share your own stories (hopefully) of success?
Back to the blah part.
Yesterday was a bad day for me. Isabelle was behaving in very UN-Isabelley ways...very clingy, very needy, would not-no matter what-was not having it-fought hard against nap time. I literally spent FIVE hours yesterday laying with her on the bed, patting her back, cuddling her up, getting up and walking around, nursing, checking the diaper, etc etc etc. She did not want to engage in any of her normal playtime activities and tt was clear she was beyond exhaused (she has very obvious sleepy signs) but she just would not lay still and go to sleep.
And I was so frustrated.
I tried to tell myself to be more caring and compassionate and consider what may be causing this odd behavior (teething? not feeling well?) but more than anything I was just annoyed.
I value the few free hours I have while Isabelle sleeps. Even if all I do is catch up on chores and blog reading, they are my hours and I enjoy them. And I was annoyed that this time was being taken from me.
And right now, I'm just frustrated with myself that my reaction with Isabelle's untypical behavior is to be annoyed. But by the end of the day yesterday, I was just that - annoyed and very impatient. And I really dislike seeing those qualities in myself.
I'm really going to make a strong effort at having a better attitude today.
Starting with spreading some joy!
There were 35 entries for the Boddler Bites Food in a Flash cards and here's what random.org gave me:
Do you have any happy thoughts to share?